CHAPTER 14

hey!

wonderin' why "Chapter 14" is my title?

Actually, it's not about me. It's about my friend,my childhood friend/best friend, Yume. Chapter 14, an unexpected thing to happen to her. Last week, I thought it was just a normal sickness that I expected that the next day she's gonna come to school. One week had past, just this Saturday (Feb. 5), her father called me at around 7:30 or 7:45. He told me that she (Yume) is in the hospital. During that conversation, he mentioned about "One Liter of Tears" that the same thing happened to Yume but she can't walk. I was so shocked when I heard about it. I went back to my room and slept a little while. I can't go back to sleep because of the thing happened to Yume.

4:00 PM, I told my mom to visit her in the hospital. When we arrived, she was there smiling at me and like, nothing happened to her. She was just normal. The thing is, she can't walk normally. I felt pity on her. I can't stop thinking about her condition. She told me that her disease is so confusing. She's also having hallucination on things and she can't remember what she's supposed to say.

Just this afternoon, her friend (and my friend too), Rie told us that she transferred to another hospital. Me & Rika were surprised why she changed hospital. When we went there, she's having a laboratory examination. Some of her classmates were there too and also her best friend, Shaira. After her examination, she went out of the laboratory. On her surprise, her classmates sang a song for her and gave her some letters, fruits & balloons. There, some of them cried and of course, she cried too. All of them were saying "Ella, get well soon".

Another thing, Bianca (a.k.a. Rie) asked her if she still knows us. She said "yes". But when it comes to Ruka, she said "no". Ruka cried and Rie too. Sad to say, I didn't cry. I don't know. Maybe my tears dried out. But I almost cried when I hugged her.

I HAVE TO MOVE ON!

hello again.

This is my second post.

yeah, my blog now is "I HAVE TO MOVE ON!"

4 months have passed since my group got broken and separated. For a small problem that got worse and some came out of a decision that we all don't want to happen. So bad because it happened 2 days after our anniversary. Before that day, we were all happy and complete then after few days, (that was August 27) for a small thing, it got worse. Misunderstanding, that was the cause of our separation. It's so pathetic!

Now, I've move on from that incident. I mean, we've all move on. Yeah, the pain is still there, will always be there when I think of it. So, I made another group now. I mean, it's not a group. It's a band. Sad to say, we don't play instruments. We're still planning for the things we're gonna do this month. Hopefully, this Feb.26, we'll have our very first song. Actually, it's not an original song. We'll be covering songs of HSJ and other singers. So, the members are still us. Me, Yuki, Ruka, Yume and Rie. We're called the YURIEKA (ゆりえか）.It is a mixture of our Japanese names (Riko, Yuki, Rika, Yume and Rie). I'm the one who thought about that name. Originally, it came from the word Eureka which means "I got it". In our name, it doesn't have any meaning even if you translate it in Japanese to English.

Anyway, we're all happy in where we are now. Sad to say, in our former group, we have bad feelings to them. Yes, honestly, we have. Especially me and Rika. Yeah, it's really hard to martyr and now I'm letting it out. I don't care if they happen to read this. It's better if they do so that they would be awakened and realize something.
And they would know how I feel towards them.

First, I really felt bad in they're doing. I'm not stopping them to make friends with Flip. It's just it feels so wrong. I mean, I can feel that there's something wrong going on. Yes, I'm very happy for them because they found new friends. I just want them to know that if they need someone and they're not there to be with them, we're still here.
This is what I really meant: if they turned their back to you, we'll be here and we're not gonna turn our backs.

Second, this is really the hardest thing I felt. We're like "air" to them. You know why? Every time we see each other, yeah, we're not ignoring each other. Sometimes, I just ignore them because I want them to be the first one to grab my attention. But look what they're doing? Ano ba? Parang hangin lang pala kami sa inyo eh? Bakit ayaw niyo pang sabihin ng harap-harapan sa amin? Ignorance is my new best friend? Is that your new theme song? How pathetic you are!

Long Time No Post

hello!

how long has it been?

woah! For months I haven't post here.

oh well, I'm here now, posting on my beloved blog.

I edited it already. hahaha. it's more simpler than before because last time, it was so complicated.

Actually, I'm planning to abandon this blog already but I realized that I shouldn't.

In this blog, I can express my feelings if I only feel to share it to others.

The other blog, that one is confidential. No one knows what my blog is.

Yes, they knew I have another blog but they don't know what's the link of it.

So now, I'm really happy for Keito Okamoto.

For the first time, I'm going to see him act in Kinpachi Sensei.

I've been wishing that he would be in a drama and now, it came true.

But still, I have more wishes that haven't come true.

First is, go to Japan. A little bit impossible because we don't have much time to go there and we don't have enough money for the expenses needed.

Second, meet HSJ. Yeah, this one could be really IMPOSSIBLE. I know that. How can I meet them if I'm here in Philippines and they're in Japan? Another thing is, Johnny won't allow them to talk to their fans.

Third, be with them again. Yes, this one is really IMPOSSIBLE. Why? Because it's really impossible! That's the answer. It's already broken now that we have separate lives. Maybe our friendship is not really meant or destined. But still, I kept on wishing that someday, we'll be together and we'll realize that all of us are important.

Maybe that's all I can share now. I still have a lot of wishes but others might be impossible. Anyway, I should be positive in everything. God is there to help me.